Every time I'm with a woman she screams blood or screams a lot

I was 14 when I had sex for the first time, he was with a 20 year old girl, she had the experience and thought she would have to teach me, but on the contrary I transformed him and put my dick in her ass and she bled, I I threw it out of her hair and hit her when she screamed. she was a little scared and didn't want to come back with me. and from that day on, I feel the same way, whenever I am with a woman, there is no other way. only a few prostitutes agreed to see me again, but at a very expensive fee that I don't want to pay. I am not a freak, I am a man who loves sex and who loves his body